What a day! :D
Cooking some tasty Miso soup after a day-long yoga practicing…. Feeling even stronger and even even happier~
Re-watching Closer….and so it is……
<Be here and be Strong.>
大病初癒後 下午第一次出門
一直沉陷:高燒 昏睡 半清醒狀態一段時間後
感官變得好靈敏
我第一次發現上海的地鐵有屬於她自己的味道
跟巴黎的老舊髒亂但就是好巴黎
還有倫敦的列車要進站那一刻你覺得你又多受了些污染又要多掉些頭髮
截然不同 

走出地鐵站後新舊並存的建築物和像碰碰車一樣跑來跑去的電動車們
各個都好鮮明的映入眼簾

當下我覺得活著真好 健康真的是一件還沒失去時你真的很難說他有多寶貴的東西

回溯星期四當天 我先是經歷了人生從來沒有過的上吐下瀉 然後再也一滴水也喝不進去
發現不是吃一吃從台灣帶來的藥就能解決的問題後 只好打電話給爸爸當地朋友

為了求快我們先到了附近當地醫院 
不是沒有耳聞這裡看病有多可怕 但身歷其境之後才知道
那對我們在太健全醫療體系中驕身慣養的台灣人來說 根本就跟戰爭前線沒兩樣
後來我不顧坐著的周遭都是當地人耳朵 跟我爸爸朋友說

帶我去臺胞醫院好不好 多久我都撐著

於是又開了好遠的路 到了一踏進去就知道
至少我暫時進入了熟悉的領土 我很快就會好起來的地方

回頭想 多諷刺阿 這裡是上海阿 但是當地人卻是在 那樣子 的醫院接受治療
每天在公司看著天文數字的交易金額 時有耳聞可怕的房地產熱況
多少人買名車 名錶 包包像在菜市場選菜一樣
到臺胞醫院的路上 是一棟又一座的新建築和購物商城

但醫院呢?
我再一次因為身在大陸而對扭曲的社會結構感到無比的困惑和脊椎發冷

這次病的太重也許也是個blessing吧 沒有太多的時間想家
只有爬到冷凍庫拿冰枕 然後在失去意識前趕快又找個不會撞到頭地方躺下來的記憶
從來就不知道原來從靈魂深處想吐到極限原來是這種感覺

而同一時間 什麼都停止了

腦中的想法 閱讀中的書籍 該赴的約 想寫的文字….
還有我的瑜伽!
我數次在昏昏沉沉中覺得我好像又做了一個完美的Hand Stand
然後在感受著對抗地心引力時那美妙的感覺 或者
在Downward Facing Dog很專心的把左邊肩膀往下壓多一點點

可是醒來之後  我還是在床上

滾一滾看看有沒有阿嬤太擔心的連環call來電或是擔心我現況的簡訊
吃藥的鬧鐘還沒響 翻個身又陷入另一個時空

但終於我從昨天晚上可以進食一些寶礦力水得加溫開水以外的東西
所以到了今天下午我終於再也忍不住回到我的瑜伽教室 回到好像是我第二靈魂的墊子上

面對眼前這片黃磚牆 
重 新 開 始

病過的身體顯得特別靈敏
每一個inhale都像一個refresh一個restart
每一個清晰的心跳聲都像雷震一樣有力
把意識和筋骨深展開後 是滿滿的喜悅
多次使不上力的挫折在重複中漸漸好轉 

我知道我功力暫時大減 但我用一副全新的感官在重新檢視一切

巧合的是就當我病倒前我和老師最後一次的談話內容
是他跟我說他看了一個關於登山的紀錄片 裡面的主角在高山上傷到幾乎都要失去了四肢了
但當他康復之後在他剩餘的人生中 還是繼續登著山 老師說他覺得真不可思議
我說: 不會阿 如果哪天我們在墊子上受傷 好了之後我們還是會’爬’回來麻
他看一看窗簾被吹起的窗外 說:Yup! You are right~
星期三那天 上海被一個大颱風侵襲著 教室只有我們兩個 然後我們就開始練習了
也是同一天 他下了我到上海後第一個到Cobra(Boo-jang-GAHS-anna)的口令
一個象徵勇氣和無懼的姿勢

再一次我又理解到 真正的的瑜伽完全是墊子以外的人生!
(但我暫時認知自己身體還是孱弱的 所以到印度只好~ 緩一緩了…shrug…)
急性腸胃炎
上吐下瀉 
高燒顫抖 
虛弱無力
多想回家

但是不能。

責任感阿責任感 我們一起面對凶神惡煞的大陸病毒吧!

Be strong!! (Williamuscle)
drawingarchitecture:

A drawing of the Heron Tower, inspired by the structure of the building. 
t.radclyffe
 marker on moleskine. 
A step forward! Just achieved head stand a day before exactly a month past since I arrived in Shanghai. Had a vision of hard stand last Saturday when participating the meditation workshop. My instructor told me afterward that conquering head stand requires not only arm and core strength but the courage to beat the fear and balancing on the instabilities. Tonight… when getting myself all prepared for getting up to the head stand, I got stuck again on the same spot that I think that’s my limit’s limit and can’t go any further. However, my instructor insisted that I was able to move A STEP FORWARD and I must keep ticking my toe up n forward. All of a sudden… I could lift myself up and the following moments were just like a miracle! Ü Once again, yoga practicing is just a reflection of the life. I know truly that there are still so many steps I have to step forward and there are also so many fear and uncertainties I have to overcome. However, I’m sure that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine! :D

A step forward!

Just achieved head stand a day before exactly a month past since I arrived in Shanghai.

Had a vision of hard stand last Saturday when participating the meditation workshop. My instructor told me afterward that conquering head stand requires not only arm and core strength but the courage to beat the fear and balancing on the instabilities.

Tonight… when getting myself all prepared for getting up to the head stand, I got stuck again on the same spot that I think that’s my limit’s limit and can’t go any further. However, my instructor insisted that I was able to move A STEP FORWARD and I must keep ticking my toe up n forward. All of a sudden… I could lift myself up and the following moments were just like a miracle! Ü

Once again, yoga practicing is just a reflection of the life. I know truly that there are still so many steps I have to step forward and there are also so many fear and uncertainties I have to overcome. However, I’m sure that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine!

:D

Aw!:p

And feeling even better when the owner walk in and treat me a glass of banana milk shake as my happy ending of the lunch~ he’s my classmate who was right next to me this morning. 

What a wonderful world!
Feeling so good having a bowl of tasty green vegetable soup after Mysore   Yoga practicing:D 
Can’t imagine I was half dead this morning when caught a cold  under this damn-air-conditioning weather when I just woke up:/ Gonna be super strong in the afternoon class later!
keep up the spirits!!